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Your Passion is Pink!
You're the type of woman that would never get described as passionate...
Oh but you can be passionate at times - you just don't let it show.
Your passion most shows through in your sweet and optimistic attitude.
And chances are, most people are very passionate about you!

Your Aura is Blue
Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.

You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone.

Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

You Belong in Rome
You're a big city girl with a small town heart
Which is why you're attracted to the romance of Rome
Strolling down picture perfect streets, cappuccino in hand
And gorgeous Italian men - could life get any better?

Your Element is Fire
Your power color: red

Your energy: hot

Your season: spring

Like a fire, you are full of power and light.
A born leader, you easily draw people toward you.
You are full of courage and usually up for anything dangerous.
You have a huge ego and love to be the center of attention.

He Loves You For You
When it comes to your body, your guy hardly notices
It's nothing to do with the way you look...
He's just has really fallen for you
But make sure to stay sexy - keep the chemistry going strong!

Your Inner Muse is Euterpe
You are most like this muse of music.
While you may or may not be musical...
You love music and set life to your own personal soundrack.
And you are good at making anyone's heart sing!

Your Scent is Strawberry
Fun, flirty, and fresh.
You're a complete sweetheart that makes everyone smile!

You Are an Intense Kisser
When you kiss, it's deep and powerful
You don't take kissing lightly
Your kisses always have meaning
And they always make your head spin

You are White Chocolate
You have a strong feminine side with a good bit of innocence thrown in.
Whether your girlish ways are an act or not, men like to take care of you.
You are an understated beauty, and your power is often underestimated!

Men See You As Understated
You are an intreguing mix of girl and woman.
You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men.
Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they don't know you.
You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those you know well

You Should Be In The Donnas
You've got that a bit of an edge to you

The bad girl that all the good boys want!

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Watching friends

Why are men such assholes? They take and take and take and never give back. They think that they have everything coming to them. I give my boyfriend everything he wants and when I ask him for something I'm selfish and a bitch. All I wanted was to spend time with him. Is that so much to ask for? I didn't think so, but I guess it is because now we are fighting, but what else is new. We fight every damn day. I keep telling myself just break up with him, but I can't because I love him, but why do I love him. He treats me like shit and he never spends time with me. He is using me for my car which he drives more than I do and he is never around to spend time with me. The few time we have the same day off from work he is always with his friends even though he told me he would spend time with me. I can't take this shit anymore. Between the last three guys I have dated I am now in 20,000 dollars worth of debt thanks to them. Why do I always fall for the wrong guys? Why am I too nice? Why do I feel the need to give everyone anything they went no matter how much it hurts me? Why can't I take control of my life? Why can't I just break up with him and say that if he wants to be with me then he needs to make things right in his life and he needs to learn how to treat me right as well? I can't though. Just the thought of not being able to feel his arms around me or his lips kissing mine just breaks my heart and makes me want to start hysterical crying. Why did I fall so hard this time. The other two times it was easier. Why is it that this time it's harder? Why did I fall in total and complete love with this one that I can't imagine even a day without him in my life? Why can't I find a guy that will love me for me and love me as much as I love him? Why can't I find a guy that can support himself and don't need me to give them money? Why can't I find a guy who will treat me right? Why can't I find a guy who truly loves me? Loves me with all his heart and would do anything for me? Loves me so much that he never wants to be away from me? Loves me so much that he will treat me like a queen and I can treat him like a king, but not to the point where I am in total debt for the rest of my life? Some one who I can build a life with and have a family with? People fall in love everyday and get married everyday and have kids everyday. So why can't I? Is it just a fairy tale for me? Is it just a dream? Am I destined to be alone for the rest of my life? And if I am why me? What did I do that I deserve that kind of pain? What did I do that I deserve this pain that I feel now and have been feeling for 3 years. It's like ever since I graduated from high school my life went to complete shit. I wish I could go back. I wish I could go back to when life was simple and it didn't matter so much what you did. I want to go back to being a kid and being able to have fun and do whatever I want whenever I want. I want to be able to go out with my friends and spend money if I want instead of having to worry if I spend this money will I be able to pay this bill. I want to go back to when I didn't have to work and it was easier to go out and have fun. I want to be free. I want to live. Why can't I?

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Kelly Clarkson

So I am at my cousin's and we are going to the movies to see the Pacifier. Vin Diesel is sooo hot. I have to then go home and study, but I don't want to so I am probably going to go home and cuddle up with my boyfriend and watch the movies I rented last night. Either that or I am going to cuddle up with the wine coolers that I got and watch movies. I'll study tomarrow. It's all good.

"Addicted"
Sung By Kelly Clarkson
Lyrics By Kelly Clarkson/David Hodges/Ben Moody

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Addicted

So today was a better day. I got back together with my boyfriend. Yeah. However, my mom is pissed at me, but what else is new. I'm stressed about school and money still, but I'm glad I have my baby boo to help me through. :)

" You Found Me"
Sung by Kelly Clarkson

Is this a dream?
If it is
Please don't wake me from this high
I've become comfortably numb
Until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like
When everything's right
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

So, here we are
That's pretty far
When you think of where we've been
No going back
I'm fading out
All that has faded me within
You're by my side
Now everything's fine
I can't believe

You founf me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see

And I was hiding
'Til you came along
And showed me where I belong
You found me
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me

(You found me)
(When no one else was lookin')
You found me
(How did you know just where I would be?)
You broke through
All of my confusion
THe ups and downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
The good and the bad
And the things in between
You found me
You found me

Current Mood: happyt
Current Music: You found me

My life sucks. I have no money and I have tons of bills. I work full time, but it's never enough money to do anything. Plus my car is about to die any minute now. I go to school full time and it's exhausting. I am also studying to get my pharmacy technician certification. Which is also exhausting. I have no friends and the person that I thought was my best friend turned 21 the other day and had a party that I wasn't invited to last night. So the only friend I have that isn't related to me is my brother's girlfriend. To make things worse I broke up with my boyfriend of 8 months yesterday. I miss him like crazy, but I am so mad at what he did and said to me yesterday. I hate men.

"Behind These Hazel Eyes"
Sung By Kelly Clarkson

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Behind These Hazel Eyes